Archive for December, 2011

I’m always been dreaming to experience magical romance…a feeling of being in fairy tale. A feeling of being in love.  I forget actually how does it feels like being in love coz it’s been a while since the last time I feel this way. I feel like being rejected by people whom I want to be with for so long. This time I feel like I am a knight in shinning armor, ready to rescue the one I loved. What I am afraid of is, I don’t know until when this someone feels this way towards me. All I have right now is my faith that this would last forever.

Every time I wake up in the morning, I can feel that I have the reason to smile, I have the reason to live my life, I have the reason to be in love. Being with this someone special will always make my day. Excited to stare in the eyes, excited to share laughter, excited to sit beside this someone special and most of all excited to feel the love everyday of my life.

The very first time, the moment I hug this special someone and allowing me to do is something I always wish to happen in my life. I can feel my blood rushing in my veins. I can feel my heart beating so fast. I can feel that I am blushing and I don’t want to let go despite of the uncomfortable position. I want to stay and I don’t want to end that moment.

All I wanted is to have someone who can love me, someone whom I can consider a best friend, someone whom I can count on in times of trouble, someone who is willing to listen and that someone who will trust me.  I will never regret to have this person in my life. Teaching me how to love again is the best gift I ever have next to love that I have with my God.

I love this person more than I think I can love myself right now and I’m always hoping this would last forever.

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It’s been a while since the last time I have updated my page…broken-hearted, rejection and so many hopeless things that happen with my life. One thing that I have learned is that “I am human”…I am hurt, I can feel the pain and I have to moved on. I learned to let go of people and somehow it eases the pain inside of me.

Creating a brand new me is so difficult, it’s so hard to begin new steps in my life. Someone came in my life that helps me recover from the past. Someone who teaches me that life isn’t about material things but sharing those material things for the one you love. Crazy but it’s true…loving someone requires so many things but I have learned important ways on how to show it. To give and give. Don’t count the efforts.

Meeting people in a very unexpected time is what I hate the most coz it won’t permit me to be ready with the consequences but recent things that happen in my life, I love how my fate throw some surprises to me. Meeting someone who have trusted me despite of a very short period of time is something that I should be proud of.

Knowing this person requires me to change my priorities, I have to manage my time well, I have to be as simple as what I should be and giving the gift of love is my goal for this someone who came into my life during my most difficult time. Someone who teaches me how to love myself and leave something for myself. I am so grateful to know that this person who came in life who is willing to listen and willing to care.

I am just hoping that someday, the one who came in my life will be a lifetime commitment.