Archive for November, 2010

Life for me is not that easy. I been struggling for so long, carrying all the loads at my back for almost three decades of my life. There are lot of ups and downs. I can’t even remember how many times I have blamed God for what is happening in my life. There was even a time that I really lost my direction, there is jealousy in my heart, hatred, unforgiveness, bitterness, I don’t have peace in me.

I thought I been struggling so hard and I am living life to the fullest. I am earning more than enough but I am not happy, I am laughing but there’s no happiness in me, I live with people who you keep pushing me to the best of life but there’s always an emptiness in me. I start asking myself, Is it the real meaning of my Life? Is it the way life should be?

One night a friend of mine invited me to visit their church. I was even hesitant to come upon hearing the word “Church” coz I know it does not sounds pleasing to me. I start thinking some alibi on how to reject her invitation that may not hurt her. Unfortunately, I can’t find any, so I say yes, well…there’s nothing wrong visiting other church for just a day. What an irony coz on that day, that very day I have found reasons to live. I don’t know but there’s an excitement in me to come back in that church. There’s a feeling of happiness that I can’t explain. Days pass by and I found some friends, friends who keep on pushing me to Grow with Jesus.

November 27-28, 2010 an event that totally change my life. I register myself to have this Victory Weekend. I never expect that this event will free me from the loads that I am carrying in my whole life. It changes my views in life, it changes the way I should see life, it changes my life. During this event there are lot of revelations that are happening to me, I have realized that I am perfect…PERFECT EXAMPLE OF A PERFECT SINNER. Now, I am walking with the Lord in freedom.

Victory Weekend open up my eyes how great is the love God has for me. I can’t even imagine how great that Love. Victory weekend is a life changing experience for me. An experience that is very significant in my life as I embrace journey of following Jesus Christ. I know, sooner or later I’ll be leaving my own family just to do what my Lord has commanded me. Following the footsteps of Jesus is not easy but I am holding on to His promise that He won’t leave nor forsake me and that promise will stay in my heart forever.

Now, I am walking in freedom with the Lord, Victory weekend does not fix my life but I was given a new life. It made me realize that I am not walking alone with the Lord coz He didn’t only give me new set of friends but He gave me family, a family that will help me in my walk with Him.

(Special thanks to Ma. Sonia “Onie” Gonzales for the photos)


Ways Men show LOVE!

Posted: November 19, 2010 in Personal

How do you know that a certain guy is in love with you? Actually there are so many ways on how to show our affection to someone and there are so many ways how to decode it. There are times that we are showing our affection to someone we love unconsciously through our actions. There are also times that because we can’t understand the action of some men it causes friction in a relationship. Hopefully girls will understand now their men by decoding their actions when they are really in love. This is not only for girls but also for guys who are not aware sometimes that they are in love. It’s a cliche for a reason…men aren’t always best at showing how they feel, even when they’re head over heels. Here are some ways that men show you their love:

He Opens Up

Emotional intimacy isn’t easy for anyone, so if he’s baring his soul to you, it’s not because he likes hearing himself talk…alright, not just because he likes hearing himself talk.

He Does the Dirty Work

Taking out the garbage and scrubbing the bathroom floor may not seem romantic, but it can be his way of showing you he cares: by helping you out and trying to make your life easier. He’s not ironing your work pants because he likes to; he’s doing it because he wants to make you happy.

He Asks for Your Help

Whether he wants your input on a blowout with his boss, or asks you to tag along and help him pick out a birthday present for his mom, he’s asking for your opinion because he respects you and cares what you think, a sure sign he’s smitten.

He Loves PDA (Public Display of Attention)

Alright, sometimes you can do without his groping in the cereal aisle at the supermarket, but take it as a compliment that he can’t keep his hands off you. He’s proud to call you his and to show you off, and sometimes there’s no better way to show his appreciation than to give you a little squeeze!

He Chooses the Perfect Gift

Don’t worry if his gifts are duds, but if he consistently hits it out of the park with his present shopping skills, take it as a compliment: he’s not only a good listener, he’s also thoughtful…and willing to spend hours searching for exactly the right thing.

He Introduces You to His Family

You can bet that as soon as he introduces a girlfriend to his mother, she’ll be on his case about grandchildren. So if he’s getting the two of you together, he knows what he’s getting himself into and that there might be a future with you.

He Makes You Part of His Inner Circle

Folding you into his circle is more than just introducing you to his friends. A man who’s gaga over you and can see a future will make an effort to make you part of his life. If he’s scheduling standing double dates with his coupled friends and inviting you to his weekly drinking night with his friends, he wants you to stick around for a while.

He Makes Himself a Part of Your Life

If he’s joining you for your boring Sunday morning errands and cuddling up on the couch with you with your and your roomies for Gossip Girl every week, he’s in it for the long haul.


Giving without Spending

Posted: November 4, 2010 in Memorable Events, Personal

I was inspired to write today about GIVING, how to Give and what’s the best thing to give coz early morning today while I’m taking a jeepney going to the office a group of young adult (Badjao) beating their drums and dancing to tune of their beat, they are giving envelopes to ask for some money. I am wondering what’s the best way to give and how to give!?

Matthew 6:2-4 “So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.”

The bible says to give secretly as much as possible. It’s not the approval of other people seeing you giving to the needy but it’s the Approval of our Father in Heaven. Personally, I don’t give to these people coz for me I am not giving but I am spending them to live life as it is. They become dependent to people that surrounds them. It’s just like I am spending a certain amount of money for other people to see me giving. It’s very clear that the bible says to GIVE but I believed we can give something aside from money. This is what all about; WE CAN GIVE WITHOUT SPENDING.

Let me first define what is SPENDING and what is GIVING. SPENDING is to pay out, disburse, or expend; dispose of (money, wealth, resources, etc.) while GIVING is to present voluntarily and without expecting compensation.

I can give my smile, I can give advice, I can give comfort, I can give compliment, I can give my prayers and I can give my time without expecting others to pay me for what I did. These are simply an illustration of giving without spending. Those are just simple things but it means a lot for others.

So what’s the best thing to give? I can say, your TIME. Giving your time is the best thing you can give. It’s something that we can’t take it back when we give it, there’s no rewind or fast forward of our time. When a person is about to die, they want their love ones to be there beside them, that’s giving your time. When a person has a problem, all he need is your time to listen to him. If you want to have a piece of mind, just give yourself a little time alone and listen to God. Listen to your heart and He will talk to you when you just shut up your mouth. The question is “How much time you can give?”

The Gift

Posted: November 3, 2010 in Failures & Success, Memorable Events, Personal

There are small details in our life that we miss to discover what it really meant for us. It might be small but it means a lot. It might be in a package that we expect less, a gift in a different wrapper, there are things in our life, small things we think useless and we choose to put it in a trash but that might be the big thing we are searching for. This is a story that inspires me to appreciate every gift that is given to me. It might be nothing to others but let us try to discover what’s in it, what’s the essence of that gift to us and how it affects us.

A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer’s showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted.

As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box.

Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible. Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, “With all your money you give me a Bible?” and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy book.

Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care things. When he arrived at his father’s house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart.

He began to search his father’s important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped behind the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer’s name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words…PAID IN FULL.

How many times do we miss God’s blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?